A prayer for my big brother

This is something I wrote tonight for my big brother, he is in the hospital awaiting surgery to remove a quite large kidney stone. He also has a kidney infection, so he’s not feeling to hot. :-( he has always protected me and guided me when I am facing different trials and tests along with his never ending support, regardless of how stupid I am being. He has such strength and wisdom it’s unbelievable. His passion for standing up for the underdog is absolutely astounding! He truly is a beautiful soul! May I ask that you join me in a prayer of healing for him please? May God continue to bless all of you! Thank you ever so much, Pen of the Sheep.

Always standing up before the test
Never backing down or taking a rest
You always stand strong in front the rest
The weak the strong
You do your best
To help those facing their own personal test
Now my big brother you stand before your own test
You always succeed, usually better than the rest

Stand firm and stand strong the way I know you can
The Lord will deliver you the way I know He can

Deliverance will come your way
Rest easy my big brother and it will go away
Troubles do come, but they never stay
This is because of your way
The way you alway stand and stay
Though trouble often looks like Goliath in a way
We all know that like David, you’ll slay them away

My dear big brother
You truly are like no other

Wearing your heart on your sleeve and your passion in your fists. Stay strong. The way we all know you are and slay these giants as you always have! I love you so very much! You are my protecter and my strength. God will lay His Almighty hand upon your body, mind and spirit to heal all that ails you. Put your faith in Him whom nothing is impossible, and you will be able to see what we already see in you!!

Dear Abba,
I pray that You lay Your Almighty healing hand upon my big brother Lord, be with him and let him know that all things are possible through You. Heal his body, his mind and his spirit Lord. Please work through the doctors and nurses that are attending to him right now. May You guide their hands according to Your merciful and healing will Lord. I ask that You grant him all that You are. I know that You alone can deliver him from all that ails him right now. I humbly pray this in Jesus name Amen, Amen

Fellowship Friday!!!!


I absolutely love this story!! It shows the love and compassion men still have for one another! These three men seen someone who was in need and did what needed to be done. While most people would ask questions they just did what they could! On a personal note with being stuck on crutches this past week or so I have encountered quite a few people who have been very kind, opening doors and such, they have been a true blessing! God bless all of you! Have a safe God filled weekend!

You can find this story and many more at http://www.sunnyskyz.com/good-news/763/After-An-Injured-Vet-Waits-2-Years-For-A-New-Wheelchair-Lowe-s-Employees-Do-What-The-Government-Won-t

P.S. Thank you all very much for your prayers for my mom she is home and doing much, much better!!!!!

Urgent prayer request!!

Please pray for my mama!! We had to take her the ER tonight, she has been having lots troubles breathing this past week. The hospital admitted her, they said she is experiencing a severe COPD attack. Please pray that God works through the doctors and staff so that she may recover and come home soon! Thank you in advance, I am sure I seem very needy lately but I thank you all for your continued support and prayers! God bless!

This has been my week :-/


So, as if having one bad foot wasn’t bad enough, I now have two bad feet :-/ I guess saying both feet would have been sufficent it’s not like I have more than two feet!! Lol Anyways! All of this I blame on my right foot!!!! Why you ask? Well, because I can’t move my right foot properly and because I have to wear a stabilizing brace. That means I wasn’t able to twist/bend my right foot properly to adjust my step when I was going down a set of stairs. Soooo down the stairs I went, only two stairs mind you, but it was enough to tear three ligaments, severely sprain my ankle and receive a mild concussion (boney shoulder?)! Like a fool I let my PTSD get way out of hand, because of the injury to my left foot it brought me back to the car accident (when I injured my right foot) in my mind. My Bubby kept telling me I wasn’t in an car accident, but that I had just fallen down a few stairs, but my mind wouldn’t hear it. It probably took 4-5 hrs for me to mentally accept it. I am a very independent person and don’t like having to rely on people or them having to do things for me, aside from my Bubby that is, it just bothers me. I prefer to do thing’s for myself. I understand that it’s ok to ask for and get help when you need it. I don’t know if it’s my ego or what but I can’t stand it! I have however sucked it up a little bit and asked for some help, my poor Bubby, (whome has bronchitis) he’s been running around getting and doing thing’s for me, all while being so patient and kind dispite how crummy he feels and Bubby if you’re reading this I thank you so very much! I am able to still cook though, again thanks to my Bubby! He set up an office chair in the kitchen so I can just roll around and do what I need to! He is fully capable of cooking but I don’t like him doing it lol only because I am a control freak and he doesn’t do it the way I would do it I guess. Short story made very long I am back on my bff crutches and because of having to take pain medications for my foot I didn’t blog this week. Trust me you would not want to read my narcotic induced writing, it’s terrible! Like actually, it’s really bad! That’s also why my fellowship friday blog was just a picture instead of me retelling it in my own words (which I prefer), because of being medicated most the week I didn’t have the time to put the proper amount of work into it. We can’t work for the next 6-8 weeks (oh! If I may ask for prayers of quick healing please) so hopefully next weeks will be a lot better! Thank you and may you all have a God filled weekend and please be safe! ;-) Until next time God bless!!

Angry With God?

Pen of the Sheep:

I love this so much! I highly suggest everyone to follow this wonderful child God! Her words and wisdom are a true God send! May The Lord be with you in all you do today! God bless!

Originally posted on The Abuse Expose' with Secret Angel:

Angry with God…
for unanswered prayers?
When everyone says He cares…
and He is always there.
Well, He loves us all…
and knows what’s in each heart.
So telling Him you are angry…
is a good place to start.

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Today I am off to the pediatrist! I am praying that God sees fit to use the doctor as His healer. I have been told that my foot isn’t ever going to be “normal” but I will take anything! I am not picky :-) Even if I am able to get a few answers I will consider today a success. For those of you who don’t know, we were in a car accident two years ago and my ankle got broken as well as strains, sprains and impact damage. Then I was in a air cast for 10 months, yes 10 months from march to January. I have been left with a limp, picture how a penguin walks, that’s me. Recently I was standing making dinner and my ankle decided it was over it and I was on crutches for two weeks and the cane full time for two weeks, and now if I walk long distances I have to use it or if I am more sore than usual. I miss having a normal foot. You don’t realize just how much you take it for granted, being able to walk, climb stairs even walk up an incline! Soooo hopefully God works His capable hands through this doctor and I receive any amount of healing, or answers. God bless all of you! May the Lord guide you and bless you throughout your day today! If you are observing Ramadan many blessings to you this month!

So here’s the thing…….

*this is not a blog for pity or self loathing. Please don’t pity me, I made a bad choice and this may be my consequence*
I have taken the last week or so off to get my brain in order I guess you’d say. In March of this year I had a CT scan of my abdomen, routine stuff after the hysterectomy. My abdomen was alright, all healed! Yay me! That is where the good news ends unfortunately. I had completely forgotten about the CT until a couple of weeks ago. I was seeing my doctor about some current minor problems I am having with my abdomen and he pulled up my CT results from March. Again I am told everything looked good and that’s when he paused, I just switched to this doctor in May so he hadn’t seen my results before. What he said in those few minutes has forever changed my life whether the outcome is good or bad. He told me that I have multiple nodes on the bottom of both lungs and that I need to quit smoke as soon as possible. I asked if it was cancer. He said because of being a smoker for as long as I have been and because of where, how many and how large they are, that it’s a very real possibility. Que punch in the gut! He said he is going to check me again next March to see, well you know, they have to wait that long for accurate results. I was so scared so so so very scared, to be honest I still am. Then I was mad, mad at God, mad at my old doctor for not saying anything, mad at the whole world really. Now I am refusing to deal with it, not out of denial but because I serve an awesome God who can and will take any burden I hand up to Him. Well this one is all His! I can’t do it, won’t do it! I accept whatever fate God has set for me, because I know to the depth of my being that He will cure whatever it ends up being. So there it is, that is why I had to step back for a short bit. As I said I don’t want pity, can’t stand it! It is what it is and God will handle this. I just ask for prayers of strength for myself and family. Thank you very much! Have a wonderfully God filled day! God bless you all!

Fellowship Friday!

This isn’t a recent story, it happened a couple of years ago and it’s a person one. My bubby woke me up at 3 am asking me to come look at his pee, yup I was thinking the same thing! He said he was in a lot of pain and just needed me to look at it. Up I got and no faster than I seen the color was I on the phone with 911! His pee looked like grape juice from so much blood and he was curled over in pain! At the hospital they tell us it’s kidney stones and they have to operate. Now while we were waiting for the ambulance all managed to grab was his I’d and healthcare card…..nothing else! We were at the hospital over 12hrs when they decided he needed surgery. We said a prayer and off they took him. As I said I only brought those two pieces of ID for him no cash nothing else! I was on the phone with my uncle updating him on what was going on, he had asked if I had eaten, I am hypoglycemic, I was telling him no I has no money on me and that I hadn’t eaten since around 6pm the night before, so it had been a while. As he was lecturing me a woman, an Angel of the Lord, approached and apologized for eavesdropping on my call but she heard that I had no money and hadn’t eaten. She offered me some some money. I told her no I couldn’t take it, I didn’t know her and there was no way of ever repaying her. She insisted though and I was very hungry! I believe that God sent this beautiful Angel to me.

“And other money have we brought down in our hands to buy food; we cannot tell who put our money in our sacks. ‘It’s all right’ he said. ‘Don’t be afraid. Your God, the God of your father, has given you treasure in your sacks; I received your silver’. Then he brought Simeon out to them.”
Genesis 43:22-23 KJV

God bless you all so much! I pray God sends you each an Angel! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ O:-)