Monthly Archives: June 2014


Today I am off to the pediatrist! I am praying that God sees fit to use the doctor as His healer. I have been told that my foot isn’t ever going to be “normal” but I will take anything! I am not picky 🙂 Even if I am able to get a few answers I will consider today a success. For those of you who don’t know, we were in a car accident two years ago and my ankle got broken as well as strains, sprains and impact damage. Then I was in a air cast for 10 months, yes 10 months from march to January. I have been left with a limp, picture how a penguin walks, that’s me. Recently I was standing making dinner and my ankle decided it was over it and I was on crutches for two weeks and the cane full time for two weeks, and now if I walk long distances I have to use it or if I am more sore than usual. I miss having a normal foot. You don’t realize just how much you take it for granted, being able to walk, climb stairs even walk up an incline! Soooo hopefully God works His capable hands through this doctor and I receive any amount of healing, or answers. God bless all of you! May the Lord guide you and bless you throughout your day today! If you are observing Ramadan many blessings to you this month!

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Posted by on June 30, 2014 in Uncategorized


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So here’s the thing…….

*this is not a blog for pity or self loathing. Please don’t pity me, I made a bad choice and this may be my consequence*
I have taken the last week or so off to get my brain in order I guess you’d say. In March of this year I had a CT scan of my abdomen, routine stuff after the hysterectomy. My abdomen was alright, all healed! Yay me! That is where the good news ends unfortunately. I had completely forgotten about the CT until a couple of weeks ago. I was seeing my doctor about some current minor problems I am having with my abdomen and he pulled up my CT results from March. Again I am told everything looked good and that’s when he paused, I just switched to this doctor in May so he hadn’t seen my results before. What he said in those few minutes has forever changed my life whether the outcome is good or bad. He told me that I have multiple nodes on the bottom of both lungs and that I need to quit smoke as soon as possible. I asked if it was cancer. He said because of being a smoker for as long as I have been and because of where, how many and how large they are, that it’s a very real possibility. Que punch in the gut! He said he is going to check me again next March to see, well you know, they have to wait that long for accurate results. I was so scared so so so very scared, to be honest I still am. Then I was mad, mad at God, mad at my old doctor for not saying anything, mad at the whole world really. Now I am refusing to deal with it, not out of denial but because I serve an awesome God who can and will take any burden I hand up to Him. Well this one is all His! I can’t do it, won’t do it! I accept whatever fate God has set for me, because I know to the depth of my being that He will cure whatever it ends up being. So there it is, that is why I had to step back for a short bit. As I said I don’t want pity, can’t stand it! It is what it is and God will handle this. I just ask for prayers of strength for myself and family. Thank you very much! Have a wonderfully God filled day! God bless you all!


Posted by on June 29, 2014 in Uncategorized


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Fellowship Friday!

This isn’t a recent story, it happened a couple of years ago and it’s a person one. My bubby woke me up at 3 am asking me to come look at his pee, yup I was thinking the same thing! He said he was in a lot of pain and just needed me to look at it. Up I got and no faster than I seen the color was I on the phone with 911! His pee looked like grape juice from so much blood and he was curled over in pain! At the hospital they tell us it’s kidney stones and they have to operate. Now while we were waiting for the ambulance all managed to grab was his I’d and healthcare card…..nothing else! We were at the hospital over 12hrs when they decided he needed surgery. We said a prayer and off they took him. As I said I only brought those two pieces of ID for him no cash nothing else! I was on the phone with my uncle updating him on what was going on, he had asked if I had eaten, I am hypoglycemic, I was telling him no I has no money on me and that I hadn’t eaten since around 6pm the night before, so it had been a while. As he was lecturing me a woman, an Angel of the Lord, approached and apologized for eavesdropping on my call but she heard that I had no money and hadn’t eaten. She offered me some some money. I told her no I couldn’t take it, I didn’t know her and there was no way of ever repaying her. She insisted though and I was very hungry! I believe that God sent this beautiful Angel to me.

“And other money have we brought down in our hands to buy food; we cannot tell who put our money in our sacks. ‘It’s all right’ he said. ‘Don’t be afraid. Your God, the God of your father, has given you treasure in your sacks; I received your silver’. Then he brought Simeon out to them.”
Genesis 43:22-23 KJV

God bless you all so much! I pray God sends you each an Angel! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ O:-)


Posted by on June 27, 2014 in Uncategorized


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Sorry my dear sisters and brothers

Sorry but this will likely be my last post for a while…….life has become overwhelming and I just can’t do it. I need to take a break from this and really need to focus on what’s going on in real life. I will miss you all dearly! I pray that God is with each and everyone of you, fulfilling your hopes, dreams and prayers! Love ya lots Pen of the Sheep! God bless you all! Goodbye for now :’-(


Posted by on June 21, 2014 in Uncategorized


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Fellowship Friday!

I just love this weeks story! A mother of 4 from Guthrie, Oklahoma who is an active member in a Christian outreach group in her church, was at her local grocery store. When she noticed her wallet had been stolen. Thinking she knew who had taken it she approached the man. Now instead of reacting the way that most of us would she said this…….

“You either give me my wallet and I’ll forgive you right now, and I’ll even take you up front and pay for your groceries” or call the police.

Obviously the man apologized like crazy for stealing her wallet. He gave it back to her. Now is the very best part of this story. True to her promise she took him to the till and payed for his $27 worth of groceries!!!!! She actually forgave him on the spot, like nothing! You can really see her Christ love through this act! Her response to her actions was beautiful!

“If someone slaps you on the cheek, offer the other one as well. If someone takes you coat don’t withhold your shirt too” Luke 6:29

Honestly I don’t know what my reaction would have been, but hearing this beautiful story of grace encourages me that should I ever be faced with a situation like this I will certainly react much differently. God bless all of you and thank you for sharing in my fellowship friday! I pray you all have a God filled weekend!

Here is the link to the original news article.


Posted by on June 20, 2014 in Fellowship Friday


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Friend or Foe

Is your mind your friend or foe?

Do you even know?

Could you even know?

If you did would you let it show?

Or simply just put on a show?

So no one would know?

Do you just let is snow?

Let it bury you so far below?

Do you keep it in tow?

Everywhere you go?

Can you just say no?

No to such a foe?

Do you really know?

Know this foe?

Do you dress up your foe?

Tie it on with a pretty bow?

Until it brings you low?

To the lowest row?

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Though we have God in our hearts it seems that our brains allow satan to take a hold of us and give us doubt, fear and sadness in the face of trials. God bless you all and have a wonderful God filled weekend.


Posted by on June 20, 2014 in Poetry


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He stands before you!

You have someone in your life that just blows you away! You just look at them, and you see all of the love and sacrifice they have for and done for you? Someone you know that no matter what the world throws at you they will stand before you. Taking it all for you, so that you don’t hurt. Not out of obligation but out of love, unrelenting, never judging, never ending, unconditional love. Someone who encourages you, even if the idea is ridiculous, naive and maybe even stupid. This person will never leave you, no matter what! Period! This person is the one that brings you peace in chaos, love in fear and humility in anger. This person is your everything! This person is a He. The Lord in heaven, Father of all! God bless you my beautiful brothers and sisters in Christ!


Posted by on June 19, 2014 in Blog's


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