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This is going to be point of view style pieces of the most influential women in the Bible. I am nearly done the first one!

Born into a death sentence: based on a true story.

Jochebed. Exodus 1:8-22 & Exodus 2:1-10

Us Levites have grown immensely as a people. Our numbers have increased significantly, and we are a mighty and strong people. The new king, a man not of Joseph’s line, is not pleased about our increasing numbers. There has been whispers among the midwives that the new king has ordered them to kill any male child born to a Hebrew woman, but the female children should be spared. Thank the Lord they are good, God fearing Hebrew women. They have told the king that we are quick in labor and deliver before they arrive. The king is working us so much harder! It seems he is working us even harder since the whispers from the midwives. He is forcing us to work ever so much more in brick, mortar and the fields. Despite all the work our numbers are still increasing. Our numbers are so great we have spread across this land of Egypt. Pharaoh has ordered to all the people that “every boy that is born you must throw into the Nile, but let every girl live”. What kind of king is this? Is he so impotent that he fears us? Is his kingdom so weak he fears our numbers? What have the Levetical people done to him and his land to deserve such a decree? Have we done anything but serve him obediently?

I have laid with my husband and am now with child! This should be a joyful time, but I am plagued with fear. I pray to the Lord our God it is not a boy! How is a mother to throw her child into the Nile? I see the other mothers after they are forced to do this. I have tried helping them, consoling the. Their pain is great and consuming. They are inconsolable. I cannot bare the thought of it! Should I bare a son, I have to believe God will deliver my him from this horrible fate.

The day has come! Today my child will arrive! I have prayed about this moment all these months. That my child be born a girl. The pains have arrived, I can feel the pains of child birth begging. I will now find out the fate of my innocent child. My beloved child. With hushed voices I am told it is a boy. My heart sinks. He has been born into a death sentence. When I look at my son I see great beauty in him. I cannot simply throw him into the Nile! I will not! I can conceal him! Protect him! My beautiful boy. I absolutely  will not!

Concealing him at first was not so hard to do. Though it is getting increasingly more difficult. He is in his third month now. I don’t think I can conceal him any longer. My heart aches and hurts at the thought of not only losing my infant son but also for him to suffer such a death. At the hands of his mother no less. I just know that, should he have been allowed to live he would have been a great man and have gone on to do great things. I do not want to do this! To toss my child into the Nile. The thought not only pains me but I can also see the pain it is causing Miriam. She has great sadness within her, this too pains me. If only there was another way. We both know what must be done, and both feel the pain and conflict involved in doing so. I have retreaved a papyrus basket, coated in tar and pitch to lay my innocent son in. No parent should out live their child, let alone be the one to fulfil such a fate. My hands shake as I lay my young son down in the basket. Tears stream down my face as I set my dear boy among the reeds by the bank of the Nile. While I do so Miriam stands at a distance. Watching. Crying. After one last look I say goodbye to my beautiful baby boy forever.

I lay and lament over the loss of my baby boy. Suddenly Miriam bursts in calling for me. There is excitement in her voice. She tells me that Pharaohs daughter has found my son. That she needs a Hebrew woman to nurse him for her. My heart fills with joy and gratefulness. He has been saved! He has escaped a certain death! He lives! Miriam and I run to where Pharaohs daughter and my son are. She asks that I nurse him for her and in return she will give me my wages. I almost want to refuse the wages, but that may raise suspicion. I lift the basket containing my son and bring him back to his home. The Lord our God has truly found favour in me! My heart is overwhelmed with joy! As time passes he grows and learns. He is a delightful child. He will be wise and fair. I know that once he is completely weaned I will once again lose him, but he will be alive! He will have a life of royalty and privilege. I pray he does not forget me, his family, or all I have taught him about his God and his people. Our Lord has granted him life! Has chosen him so survive against the wills of man. God must have great plans for my beautiful boy.

The time has come for me to hand over my precious son. I pray God grants me strength. That he works through Pharaohs daughter, even though she is a heathen, to raise my son well. That she may love and adore him as I his mother does. My heart wrenches as my son reaches his third year. As before I know what I must do. Though this time I know he will surly survive. I must put my trust and faith in the Lord our God. For He delivers those who fear and obey Him. I have to keep my faith in Him. He will give my boy a wonderful full life. Why else wou he have saved him from certain death? Still I can’t help but wonder a few things. Will she love him as I do? Will he be treated fairly despite being of the house of Levi? What will his life be? Will he be happy? All these questions, thoughts and many others run through my mind as I prepare to give my child away.

I bring my beautiful son to Pharoahs daughter. Her eyes light up the was a mothers does upon seeing her child. Yes, he will be in good hands. I hand over my son to the woman who is now to be his mother. I walk away from them with tears in my eyes and a mix of gratefulness and sadness in my heart. For the years leading up to my death I hear updates and news of how my beautiful son lives. She has named him Moses. He has the royal life he was destined to have. As I lay dying I know that myself, my family and my beloved baby boy have been blessed and have found favour with the Lord our God. I pray He continues to bless them all long after I am gone. I am Jachebed.

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Bathsheba

What a stunning evening! There is a warm spring breeze in the air. This is the perfect night to have a bath. I will go up to the roof I should be hidden in the seclusion of the night. It gets ever so lonely at night when Uriah is off to battle. The nights, they seem to drag on for so long. I yearn for the companionship of my husband. How I wish I could lay with him. Read the rest of this entry »

 
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Posted by on January 10, 2014 in That's what she said

 

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Eve Part 2

Now that look I haven’t seen on the Lords face before either. He has such a beautiful face. Is that sadness? Fear? Pain? I think it might be all of them. His immaculate face turned this way after my husband told Him that I picked the fruit from the forbidden tree and gave it to him. I feel a need to take responsibility for my actions, but my mouth won’t open. I can’t speak fear has my tongue. I wonder what it is going to feel like to be dead. What do you do if you’re dead? Will the Lord still walk with us? Will He still be our companion? It feels as though I have just woken. The Lords saddened face turned to me all I could see was pain. It was as though the tears building up in His eye could flood the earth.

I am asking myself the same question the Lord is asking me. What have I done? I am slowly starting to realize just how terrible eating from that tree was. I just thought I would be as wise as the Lord. If I am indeed as wise as He, then why do I feel so dumb? So naive? Should I apologize? Would it make a difference? How do I properly explain that the serpent lied to me, and that is the only reason I ate from it. He deceived me. He tricked me!! Who is he? Why can he speak to me and none of the other creatures in this place can? He made me think that a simple fruit would give me the world, not take my world away. He never said it would hurt anyone; I didn’t want to hurt anyone.

The Lord is very angry with the serpent. He has made all creatures greater than him. I hope the Lord has mercy on me. Who is he that the Lord will cause us to oppose him? Right now I do however have plenty of hostility towards this earth crawling deceiver. I will never side with him again, he can keep his seed and I will bare the seed of the Lord. I will not oppose the Lord again. Why would I oppose the Lord by eating from that tree? I knew that I was not to do that. Never again will I oppose the Lord.

The Lord has found mercy on me! I am not going to die, well not right now. He is going to grant me children. Even after what I have done. How can He the Lord Almighty, creator of all life have such love for me that He will allow me to create a life within me? Yeah it’s going to hurt more, so what? He is granting me an amazing gift. A gift I don’t deserve. If God created me and I hurt Him, will my child hurt me? Will they hurt the Lord? How do I make sure our children don’t do that? I must teach them to respect and listen to the Lord. To do all it is that He commands of him. Not to be a fool like me. Honestly I do fear the pain. Is it the pain of childbirth that is going to kill me? Will it be that bad? Oh how I love my husband my desire is already only for him. If I had just listened in the first place we would not be in this position. From here on out I will listen to Adam. Apparently my judgment is no good.

Why is the Lord angry with Adam? This is entirely my fault! I took the fruit, I listened to the serpent. Now he has to work all his days to tend this blessed land, what have I done? It won’t grow and tend to its self anymore? I wish I could just tell the Lord it was all my fault, now because of me Adam must labor until the Lord returns him to the earth. Is that what death is? Returning to the earth? How are we going to survive? What are we going to do? Will our children work the land too? Adam can’t do it alone.

Eve, my husband has called me Eve. This is a truly beautiful name. I desire to live up to the beauty of this name. I hope we don’t have to leave this place, this is our home. The Lords love and mercy never ends, this new skin and cloths He has made for us are so much more comfortable than the ones we made for ourselves. I feel very heavy hearted more so than I have already felt. This day is really not tuning out very well. The Lord removed us from our garden, our home. I loved that place; it was so beautiful, so peaceful. Most of all, the Lord was there. I can still feel Him with us, though He doesn’t walk among us anymore.

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This new place isn’t so bad, but it’s not our garden. We have adjusted very well to this place. We have settled into a rhythm it seems. The Lord has given us our commands and we will never disobey Him again. He has blessed us with a child! The experience of being with child is amazing. The feeling of knowing you are creating life is indescribable. I wonder if this is the feeling the Lord had when He created us. Did He have the overwhelming sense of pride and anticipation? Did He know what we would do? What we would become? I have fears of what our child will become. We must make sure our child follows the commands of the Lord. Make sure our child understands the love and mercy of the Lord. Unlike us, our disobedience cost us everything. It cost us our home, our garden, our relationship with the Lord. I am really starting to fear the pain of giving birth to our child. I don’t know if I can do it. I wonder if it is going to be a man or woman. I would like for it to be a man, so that he can help his father tend the land. I see the strain it puts on Adam working the land day in and day out.

The Lord has blessed me with a man. My child is here. The pain was unlike any other pain I could have imagined. But to see the face of this beautiful child made all of the pain worth it. We decided to call him Cain. Being a mother is a lot of work. Sometimes I tease Adam that my job may be harder than his. Again the Lord blessed us with child, another man. Him we shall call Able. I still find it hard to believe that even after I ate from that tree the Lord would have such love and mercy on me to continue to bless me. I love my men. I wonder if God has the same pride and frustration when He watches over us and guides us. My men they have their roles, Cain he is the tiller of the ground and Able well he watches over the sheep. I am so proud of them. Am I the mother the Lord wants me to be? I worry about Cain, I sense something angry in him.

 
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Posted by on January 5, 2014 in That's what she said

 

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Eve Part 1

It’s was as though I had just awoken. This man he is my husband and the other is my Father, my Creator. They are good men. I like them and enjoy their company. The Lord says that because He created me from Adam, man must leave his mother and father. Adam and I are to be one flesh. I wonder what it is to be one flesh. Is it because the Lord took me from Adams rib? My husband Adam has told me of all the things the Lord has commanded us. With all the amazing things to eat why would I want to eat from the one tree He as commanded us not to eat from? Surly I don’t wish to die. I wonder when the Lord will be around again. He is such good company. I really enjoy walking in the garden with Him.

One day I was walking about the garden and this serpent came slithering up to me. There was something curious about him. I really couldn’t place it, something off setting. He was very smooth yet untrustworthy. He didn’t belong here. He asked me if God said that I couldn’t eat from any of the trees in the garden. I really don’t understand why he is asking me this. Surly he should know what God has commanded. I told him that God said we could eat from any tree we wanted except for the one in the middle of the garden, and that we can’t even touch the tree. If we did we would die! I don’t want to die, that would mean leaving this beautiful place. This place is my home. Then the serpent said that I actually wouldn’t die! If I wouldn’t die then why would God tell me I would? I am getting really confused. Then the serpent tells me that the only reason God doesn’t want me to eat from it or touch it is because if I do I will know everything He does. I would know good and evil. What is evil? What is good? I don’t understand what these things are. If God created us in His image then why don’t we know what these things are? Why would He be different than us?

This all made me really think. I walked over to the tree in the middle of our garden. It really was a very beautiful tree. The fruit that hung from it looked delicious! It was unlike any other tree in our garden. I stood there for quite some time thinking about all that the serpent said. I want to be like God. Why wouldn’t He want us to know these things? Could this delicious fruit really make us like Him? I didn’t really know if I believed it. I wondered to myself if God would even know if we ate from it. The temptation grew stronger the longer I stood there starring at it. My stomach actually started to grumble, my mouth watered and my mind desired. Finally I made my decision. I reached out to the piece of fruit that caught my eye. I grabbed it with my hand and pulled it from the tree. All I could think was that I just wanted to be as wise as God!

I walked through the garden toward where Adam was. All I could think about was if the fruit tasted as good as it looked! Finally there was Adam, I showed him the fruit and we both ate it. Oh this is not what I expected, how could something so pleasing to the eye, be so terrible? It was so bitter and unpleasing. The flavor was unlike anything we had eaten in our garden. All of a sudden I look down and realize I was naked. Through my shame I noticed that Adam was also naked, he noticed the same time I did. I felt my cheeks get really hot. I have never felt this way before. Adams face was all red. Was this what being wise was? Was this good or evil? It really didn’t matter what it was I didn’t like it! Adam and I decided that we needed to make ourselves some coverings. We went and found some leaves and vines and made ourselves coverings. They were not comfortable but they did what they needed to do. I don’t like this. What have I done? Is God going to be angry with us? Are we going to die? What are we going to do?

In the middle of all of these thoughts we heard God walking in the garden. Oh no! Now what? We have to hide! He can’t see us like this! We are naked! What if He finds out we ate from the tree? What is this feeling? Is this fear? I am really starting to not like this at all! God is calling out for Adam now. Oh boy this is not good. He is calling to see where we are. Adam responds to Him telling Him we had to hide ourselves because we were naked. Oh great now He knows we are naked. This is so embarrassing! God asked Adam how he knew he was naked. Then He asked the question we both wished He wouldn’t ask. He asked if we had eaten of the tree He commanded us not to. I have a huge lump in my throat, I really don’t like this. Adam just gave me a look I don’t recognize, but I know it makes me feel uncomfortable. What have I done? How could I listen to that serpent? Why would he cause me to do this? How could I eat from that tree? Of all the delicious trees in our garden I had to eat from that one? It’s now I truly realize I have done something wrong. If only I had known what it was I was sacrificing all of this for. Well, here we go. There’s that look again, I wonder why Adam keeps giving me this look. Is that anger? All of these new emotions are so confusing for me to understand. I may not know what the look means but I am certain it isn’t meant in a pleasant way.

For part two click here! https://penofthesheep.wordpress.com/2014/01/05/eve-part-2/

 
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Posted by on January 4, 2014 in That's what she said

 

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Help needed!

I am working on a new series of writings. They are a point of view style of the most influential women of the Bible. I have a bit of a list already I just need to know who people would like to hear from I guess you’d call it. I am 3/4 of the way done Eve. It was inspired by the same church service that my aunt spoke at. Please share the women you think we’re the most influential.

Btw there is no clear list online! I find that very strange! Ok God bless you and thank you in advance for your suggestions!

 
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Posted by on December 18, 2013 in Blog's, That's what she said

 

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